Sunday, February 28, 2010

Heard this in Gregorian Chant and had to share....

My Immortal lyrics

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me


Thursday, February 25, 2010

Good thoughts...

From the Simple Dollar Blog:

Today Is the Day

Posted: 22 Feb 2010 12:00 PM PST

Today is the day to tell your wife that you love her.
Today is the day to call your mother and chat with her for an hour.
Today is the day to send your dad a note.
Today is the day to get in touch with that friend you haven’t talked to in a while.
Today is the day to call up a special person and set up a date.
Today is the day to stop by your grandmother’s house with a sack full of groceries and make dinner for her.
Today is the day to visit that old family friend who helped you so much when you were younger.

Not Valentine’s Day. Not Mother’s Day. Not Father’s Day. Not someone’s birthday. Not Christmas.

The value a person has in your life is never really shown on a “special” day marked on a calendar and observed with a greeting card and a slickly-wrapped present. It’s shown with a few minutes (or an hour or two) of your time on a day when they don’t expect it. On a day when they’re merely in your thoughts.

Build those relationships now before the chance is gone.
Build those relationships now and they’ll pay dividends for the rest of your life.
Build those relationships now so that you can have someone to always share every exciting moment and success in your life with.
Build those relationships now when times are good so they’ll still be there when the times are bad.

I’m stopping right now so you can take the few moments you might have spent reading a longer post to instead do something to build a valuable relationship in your life, because it will often be those very relationships that are there for you when the chips are down.


Sadness has become my underlying emotion lately.
Like a fog, it surrounds and permeates.
Like being in the dark, you grope around praying you find your way through.
You do not SEEK sadness, you do not WANT sadness, but there it is anyway.
You want it to go away
You scream, you plead, you pray, you weep...
Alas, it's still there each time you awake.
And lately, even in my dreams...

You decide not to be sad
You read books on how not to be sad...
You find it isn't that simple.
Not like a switch once turned on you turn off.
I guess I'll just have to wait it out,
knowing that there is sunshine out there...
even for me.

I hope.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Tuesday Simple Woman's Daybook Entry....

Outside my window…33.1 degrees...Light gray skies, the aftermath of a rainy weekend.

I am thinking…about how impacting the book "Dance of the Dissident Daughter" was in my life, and seeing how the impact is spreading...and loving it!!!

I am thankful for…no fighting with the hubby so far this week...

From the kitchen…hamburgers last night, smothered in cheese...

I am wearing…black slacks, black socks and shoes, navy blue polo top and a tan sweater.

I am creating…or, seeking to align with…peace, every time I don’t retaliate, don’t defend, don’t resent, don’t escalate...this is my highest goal.

I am going…to continue in growth, in prayer, in reading, in improving...

I am hoping… that my father remains strong as he approaches death. And that I remain strong as my father approaches death.

I am hearing… some kind of machine out in the shop rumbling away.

Around the house… Getting ready for our move this summer, thinking of what to Freecycle, what to pack, sorting through things in my head.

One of my favorite things … Being able to walk well again, with so much less pain.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Husband's birthday is tomorrow, picking up a cake and some ice cream, maybe something nice to serve. Son is coming from the valley and bringing his girlfriend. Will be interesting.

Here is picture thought I am sharing… picture is attached at the top...I found this Russian Doll photo when researching the fact that Sue Monk Kidd used a Russian Nesting Doll image as a "mother" image. Because blue roses are so special to me, I, of course, had to have this one. I'm having a print made to hang in my altar area.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Unchained Melody

by the Righteous Brothers

Oh, my love
my darling
I've hungered for your touch
a long lonely time
and time goes by so slowly
and time can do so much
are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
Godspeed your love to me

Lonely rivers flow to the sea,
to the sea
to the open arms of the sea
lonely rivers sigh 'wait for me, wait for me'
I'll be coming home wait for me

Oh, my love
my darling
I've hungered for your touch
a long lonely time
and time goes by so slowly
and time can do so much
are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
Godspeed your love to me

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Mindlessness vs Mindfulness

I was farming on Facebook today: click, click, click, click...harvesting each little square of my farm when I had this thought: Oh my God, this is so mindless.

Mindlessness: a. Marked by a lack of mind or consciousness b(1) Marked by displaying no use of the powers of the intellect (2) Requiring little attention or thought; especially: not intellectually challenging or stimulating

This is opposite of the life I am seeking: A mindful life!!!

Mindful: (1) Bearing in mind: AWARE (2) Inclined to be aware

Aware: (1) archaic: Watchful, Wary (2) Having or showing realization, perception or knowledge

Can I live a mindful life whilst spending so much of my "free-time" doing utterly mindless stuff? Good question...

So, my challenge for this week is to be AWARE, to keep track of how much time I spend in mindlessness...Maybe I'll make this part of my Lenten observance...seeking out mindlessness in my life...What do you think?

The Simple Woman's Daybook For Today...

February 4, 2010...

Outside my window...
.it's sunny and partly cloudy. Sunshine is so welcome after the dark grayness of winter...
I am thinking...about my marriage...
I am thankful for... some sunlight. It helps lift my depression to a degree. I'm thankful for friends, for family, for online contacts...
I am learning... to let go of my stuff. This decluttering process can be painful, but ultimately brings peace.
From the kitchen...tonight I'll be making Rice-a-Roni with ground beef in it. Bland but filling.
I am wearing...v-necked navy blue polo shirt, black jeans, black socks, black shoes.
I am creating... nothing at the moment. I'm between creative spurts.
I am church with my son and daughter-in-law this coming Sunday.
I am reading...When the Heart Waits: Spiritual Direction for Life's Sacred Questions by Sue Monk Kidd. I'm on a Sue Monk Kidd kick, I just finished The Secret Life of Bees and before that Traveling With Pomegranates.
I am hoping... that my life crawls out of the pit it seems to have fallen into.
I am many people committing to compassion in their daily lives. It's heartening.
Around the house...I"m looking towards the move this summer and starting to declutter in my head, hoping to get it out into working on the house soon.
One of my favorite my computer. It keeps me in touch with people all over the world.
A few plans for the rest of the week: Seeing Wyatt this weekend.
Here is picture for thought I am sharing...This is so how I feel inside lately, like the slightest comment will start me crying...this is the pit out of which I need to climb...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

In honor of my becoming a grandmother...

How To Be A Fantastic Grandparent

Photo courtesy of Chemophilic.

Post written by Sherri Kruger. Follow me on Twitter.

Being a grandparent sounds easy doesn’t it? Popping in for a visit every now and again, having a good play, bending the rules and at the end of it all you get to leave and go home to quiet and order.

But there is a fine line between parenting, which you are likely very familiar with, and grand parenting. There are new expectations and boundaries that come with grandparent status. I was blessed with 4 very loving grandparents who, in my eyes, did fantastically well in their role. They were always encouraging, loving and fun.

I am proud of the grandparents my children have. Grand parenting seems to come naturally to my parents and my in-laws. So what makes a fantastic grandparent? I’ll share with you some of the qualities I’ve seen in my own grandparents as well as my parents and in-laws that have made them fantastic grandparents in my eyes.

1. Respect the rules. You are no longer in charge of making the rules – relief right? But you do need to respect the ones set out by your children. The “if you’re in my house you play by my rules” doesn’t work so well. Doing this can cause confusion for your grandchildren and tension with their parents. If they aren’t allowed to do something like cross the street or go outside by themselves then respect that. But you are grandparents so to spoil the little ones is to be expected. So let them have an extra cookie or a soft drink with dinner. Let them stay up and watch TV a bit later than usual or read them 5 stories before they go to sleep. Bending the small rules is okay.

2. Join in the fun. Get silly and have fun with your grand kids. Some of my fondest memories of my grandparents are from when we were completely silly. Sliding and swinging at the park, flying kites, playing dress up, and ice skating. It’s one thing to simply take your grand kids to the park and something entirely different to get in on the action. Plan tea parties, get out some old clothes and play dress up, pitch a tent in the living room and have a picnic lunch, play tag in the park. The possibilities are only limited to your imagination.

3. Be a mentor. As if by default, you, as a grandparent, are the coolest person on the planet. In a kids eyes you are wiser, nicer, and more patient than mom and dad. You can take this opportunity to build a special relationship with your grandchild. Take on and embrace the role of mentor. Teach your grand kids to do things that their parents can’t, don’t have time to, or lack an interest in. Show them how to make a kite from scratch and then fly it in the backyard. Teach them how to plan a garden and plant flowers accordingly. Build a bird feeder or toy box. There are a lot of projects you can do together that are fun and interesting.

4. Stay connected. A fantastic relationship with your grand kids won’t just fall into your lap, you do need to put effort in. Spend quality time with them. If you live close by take the opportunity to visit your grand kids frequently. If you don’t live close enough for frequent visits pick up the phone or set up a web cam. One of my fondest memories I have with my gran is exchanging hand written letters as a way to keep in touch while my husband and I were living in Australia. We also spoke on the phone but it’s the hand written letters that are especially memorable.

5. Share stories. You are the family historian. Your life so far is full of interesting stories of days gone by. Share them. Recount your tales of walking 10 miles to school, through 4 feet of snow, uphill both ways. Let them know what life was like before the Internet, cell phones and MP3 players. Share stories of when their mom or dad were little and what funny things they did. If you feel up to it capture these stories and some family history on paper. Keep notes on important family names and dates, significant holidays or special events. This way your grand kids will have something to look back at when their memory of the stories begin to fade.

6. Love them. This is the by far the most important thing you can do to be a fantastic grandparent. Show your grand kids you love them. Hugs, kisses, piggy back rides, long walks pulling them in the wagon, and never missing a chance to tell them you love them. Show an interest in what they are currently interested in – sports, hobbies or TV shows. Showing love and building a caring relationship goes a lot farther than any material gift you can give them.

From what I can tell being a grandparent is an amazing experience. It takes a bit of effort on your part to make it work but the relationships you create are certainly worth it – not only for you but for your grand kids as well.

What other qualities are found in fantastic grandparents? I have a feeling I’ve only scratched the surface.