I had a fight with Jon today. He says I am self-pitying and a bitch. He says his whole life is so boring he wants to die. Work is boring, home is boring, life is boring. Then, after everything had settled down and we were talking again he said something that sort of chilled me...he said that he sees one of the missions of his life to be destroying naivete and innocence wherever he finds them. In this context he is speaking of his two friends, Matthew and Charles. Charles is a wonderful, compassionate person and it hurts me to think that Jon would want to change that. Some people are very twisted.