Tuesday, November 19, 2013

November 19th, 2013: The Day of Divorce


Today obviously made more of an impact on me than it did on him...

I woke up at 7AM and bathed and got ready. I polished my nails and did my makeup. I chose my clothing with care, remembering the care I took getting ready for our marriage. I wore my blue silk blouse and my black jeans with sparkles.

He wore a brown shirt and jeans. His hair wasn't even brushed. As I struggled to fill out last minute papers, he played Bejeweled on his phone.

We pretty much approached life from radically different places and this was a clear example of that dichotomy.

It is finished...We are divorced...

I loved him unflinchingly, unfailingly and completely for 22 years and 11 months, from our first brief kiss at Mr. Gatti's in Austin, Texas.

He hugged me, I touched his face, we walked away. Sadness engulfed me.

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So, now I build a life for myself...Not that I thought we'd ever be together again & not that I haven't been "building" a life these past 11 months, because I have been...But today I am divorced...no longer married...single...my own person...free to be what I want to be, whatever that turns out to be.

6 comments:

Bethany Lehman said...

This is the beauty and ceremony that is simply who you are. I pray you continue to work through the rest of your life with this depth of spirit! I love you Momma!

Debra Masters said...

Love you too, Bethany!!! And thank you!!! You have been the best cheerleader EVER!!!!

Bethany Lehman said...

Thanks! Check out this quote that just came from my journal site!!!
“Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul.” – St. Augustine
Continue loving and being loved!

Arizona mom to eight said...

Speechless at the seemingly casual way he ended your lives together, I wish I could give you a hug, or take you out for a quiet evening where we could just talk all evening. My very best to you, today and always. (((hugs)))

debramasters said...

Thanks, Kris!!!

debramasters said...

Thank you, Bethany, my darling daughter!!!!! :o)