I'm struggling with an emotion I don't remember ever experiencing before...loneliness. Oh, don't get me wrong, we moved a LOT when I was a kid and there were times I really missed some of the people we left behind, but this latest upheaval in my life has left me emotionally bereft and I find myself wandering around in a fog of such loneliness that my heart threatens to capsize in my inner being. And this feeling is complicated by the fact that I feel like I'm not supposed to/allowed to feel these feelings. So I hold them closely inside of me having no one to share them with. It becomes a black hole in my soul that threatens to eat me alive. So...I thought I'd write about it just a little, crying at my keyboard...trying so hard not to give in and be taken by the grief...
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Though for very different reasons, I too feel VERY alone in this season of life.
There is nothing I can say or do to ease the feelings. You are allowed to feel loneliness, I just wish you didn't have to.
Our home is always always always open. ANY time. You will get through this hard time. <3
I too am feeling very alone and lonely. A very dear friend broke some walls down inside of me, and I found myself realizing how lonely I've been for a long while.
Yet this loneliness is healthy, in that it is pointing me to make changes, to reach out, to grow and learn new relationships.
In that sense, loneliness can be holy.
Mine is a loneliness of like-mind. Not a loneliness of people. I have many people around me, people who share my life, son/dil/gs/teen son/friends...but not someone anymore who thinks like I do even slightly, who shares my quirky TV shows, my passion for SciFi. It is this loneliness of which I speak...
What Sci fi are you into Debra? My granddaughters have gotten me to read some books they are into and we have a great time sharing what we learned together. Perhaps WE would have some things like that in common, I am always open to discussion and even new material... email me off list if you want. Maybe we can help each other. *smile*
Lots of Love....
Our loneliness is perhaps a symptom of something else? Let's talk about it.
Hugs,
Alberta
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