It's getting easier to be alone. I've learned to cope with the lack of noise and to create my own noise when I need it. I'm more comfortable in the apartment. I've come to grips with my inner noise, my struggle to understand myself, my relationship and my relational failure. Those are some interestingly intense inner conversations, often journaled out to keep me sane...
I brought home a second kitten to keep my Ms. Kitty company while I work 9 hour days (sometimes 10 hour days). After a life always with MooCow, she was kind of listless, so Maggie has joined our household.
My birthday is this week, and I'm having a gathering, an open house from noon to 9PM so that people I know can wander through on their way to/from places and share a cupcake and some tea. I haven't had a birthday "party" of any kind since I turned 40, and before that not much since I was 21. I picked out a tea party invitation that suited me and I have teacup and teapot cupcake toppers for the cupcakes. I wanted to throw a Tardis themed party, but I couldn't find enough Tardis themed party stuff to do so. I special ordered stamps with teapots on them!!! And they were blue!!! I was so elated! Ahh the little things...
