She said YES!!!

Jon's mom said yes to our request!!! I could die of relief. They have a safe, COOL, clean place to be and an excellent school district. Michael's 6th grade will be in the same school as sean and he'll have another year to mature before middle school. I pray that this small town school turns out to be just what they need!!! This is going to be VERY rough on us all (especially Sean) but hopefully it will work out well in the end.

We went to Golden Corral for dinner. I did not sleep solid and have not all week. Too much change and stress, sigh.

We talked a bit more about Carole and her "thirst for power and control" over our lives. He fears she will push him to seek a lawyer and divorce me AND try to get custody of the kids. Sigh. GRRRRRR.

Jon's Mother

Jon's mother is driving me CRAZY with this "don't tell anyone" attitude about Jon's offense. Does she think that he is going to SHOUT IT TO EVERYONE??? Or put it on a tee-shirt???? Good grief.

We called the Sherriffs department and found out that his information will NOT be published in the Lampasas newspaper because his conviction was before 1995. THANK YOU GOD. Now maybe his mother will settle down.

Jon's mom

I have committed the unpardonable sin. I put the "SACRED" Nuessen email address on the same email as the "undesirable" Masters name. And now I am in trouble and all of our plans to move Jon and the boys up there to Lampasas is in jeopardy. And, as usual, everything is my fault. And now SHE and Jon are on an emotional tear. I am SO SICK of them BOTH and their moods and their freaking UNREASONABLENESS!!!!!!!!!!

Called out from work...

Called my father to wish him a belate happy birthday. Sounds like he had a GREAT time for his 73rd birthday!!!

Told them about Jon's layoff and our upcoming move(s).

Sent 4 rolls of film to Photoworks, INCLUDING wedding pictures.

Worked on packing our room. Jon worked on packing the computer room.

Spoke to Jeremy awhile.

Didn't feel well so I didn't go to work.

Happy Birthday, Daddy

It's just after 7AM and I am at the Chick-fil-A by our work. I was feeling panicked and trapped so I fled the house.

As much as I hate the house we rent ITSELF, and it's endless ability to suck us dry financially, I love our neighborhood and I'm going to miss it, as will the boys. To move from all of their friends to somewhere where they are out in the middle of NOWHERE is going to be tough for them.

Then we face the very real possibility that Jon may not be able to find work in "smalltown Texas" due to his conviction!!! We really need to save money and try to seek a pardon for him or this will haunt him his whole life!

WHAT ARE WE DOING????? This is truly insane.

Thinking...

When I think of all the times and ways I've thought of leaving Jon it's one thing; but for HER to interfere is another and it makes me furious. It's so like her to be this controlling.

The sheer VOLUME of what has to be done over the next 3 weeks OVERWHELMS me. I am imobilized just thinking of it. Sigh.

The email

Jon sent his mom an email requesting permission for him and the boys to live in her office building for 6 months while I save money and pay bills and he gets a job. He even offered to pay her rent from his unemployment.